Here we go again | Baby K2 is 12 weeks

Wow here we go again! Twitchy and I decided to give baby K a sibling and after months of um'ing and ah'ing, we decided to give it a try. Once again we are blessed very quickly.....and I truly am thankful for that.

Pregnancy second time around

First trimester this time around has been really tough. Nausea and fatigue hit me pretty hard and I often wondered if it's because I have to care for a toddler too. Spent many days lying on the couch with the toddler watching tv and falling asleep ( thank god she let me sleep) and lots of naps together. Because I am one tired mummy, patience has also been pretty thin, which brought lots of challenges when dealing with my little toddler....Speaking of which, Baby K shall now be known as Toddler K.  

Toddler K has been bringing so much joy to our lives, little miss chatterbox that she is. She's bubbly, caring, kind and.....an extrovert! The things she says often leaves me dumbfounded and cackling with laughter! I have so much love for this little one and I know she will be a fantastic sister! She doesn't know it yet - been holding back until I am showing a little more.

Anyway.... Back to the pregnancy. I'm 12 weeks now and slowly but surely the first trimester symptoms are easing off. I hope! Having no energy has been no fun...and the nausea - lets just say I have been eating and eating to keep it all under control.

We saw baby k2 at the 12 week check up and I am so excited. Strong heartbeat and very wiggly! Darling baby, grow in mummy's belly and I can't wait to see you soon.

Here's to more happy days ahead...

40 weeks today

We're due today!

What did I do? Lots, even though I had crappy sleep last night. Walked to the shops with mum and had coffee and then a bit of a walk around the neighbourhood. It was good morning for a walk. When we got home, we continued exploring my building and the street parallel to time.

After a bit of a rest - watching a drama series, we went to the mall for lunch.

While we were walking at the mall I felt a little funny. Like a twinge of something. (What can I say, I'm quite intuitive when it comes to my body!). Went to the toilet to check, but nothing.

It's close to bedtime, and I definitely think something's up. Like I'm leaking. Whether this is something to be excited about, we shall see!

39 weeks + 5

It's July, it's July!

After 9 days of rain, the first day of July brought a ray of sunshine. Which is very much welcomed here. I was going nuts trying to figure out how to entertain mum and also to figure out ways to exercise and stretch my legs. Geez, being heavily pregnant and restricted is sure no fun. Some people find joy in just eating and sleeping but I just can't do it! I'd love to walk, sight see and watch movies! Added to stress is mum being here. Mum who is not too independant and not adventurous on her own - which means, I struggle to keep her entertained.

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How far along? 39 weeks + 5 days

Total weight gain/loss: I haven't dared to weigh myself for a while. All I know is that I have been eating a fair bit and my little low tummy is not so little anymore!

Maternity clothes? Yes! Wearing the same old outfits day in and out. Decided that i'll just wear hoodies and jumpers and lots of scarf rather than buying new coats. Also tracky daks and dressing gown when i'm home. I like wearing my fitted long sleeve tops to show off the bump!

Stretch marks? Yes :( Right on 38 weeks the stretch marks appear. It's low on the tummy so I'm guessing because baby dropped. It's was a little upsetting but I've resigned to it and am repeating to myself that i should be thankful i only started getting them late in pregnancy!

Symptoms: 2 nights of sleeplessness and carrying low. There are still occasions when I get breathless and can't get comfortable. Other than that I'm feeling good!

Sleep:  Occasional sleeplessness. I'd say every other night as I'm getting a little more uncomfortable now. Baby's pretty active at night too.

Best moment these 2 weeks: Now that mum is here, I find relief when hubby is home. He helps to offload the pressure and takes control of things, which I truly treasure.

Have you told family and friends: Yes! Actively posting on Instagram :)

Miss Anything? Sashimi these days. And being slim and not being squashed. Walking and running!

Movement: Baby is head down and engaged! At my last appointment the doctor says she is still even lower. Which i already knew. I can feel her when i walk sometimes. Thankfully I am not waddling yet! She is also moving a little bit more!

Food cravings: Since my last post, I had my durian. It was heavenly! Nothing much otherwise, perhaps fruits?


Anything making you queasy or sick: Still the smell of cooking meat :( Mum has taken over the cooking duties. Thankfully she is mindful of my aversions and has stuck to steamed/boiled food.

Baby is a: GIRL!

Belly Button in or out? Half in and out? hehe! 


Wedding rings on or off? On. Doesn't look like my finger are going to swell.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy today because the sun is shining! Been a little moody as I struggle to  adapt to mum being around.

Looking forward to: Baby being here. Any day now - it's 2 days to due date but I doubt she'd be on time. But don't take too long baby, wouldn't want you to overcook!

38 weeks + 5 days

Third week of maternity leave and mum is here! I have to be honest. I haven't been looking forward to the thought of mum living with us for 2 months. Twitchy and I spent our last date night watching a movie on Friday night before picking mum up on Saturday morning. The weekend was a blur of going to Asian grocery stores and buying Asian confinement necessities. Yes I am actually going to abide by the Chinese confinement rules post partum....EEEEK!

Anyway, I was pretty sure that bubs would be here early. But at the last OBGYN appointment, i walked into the office with another lady, who was clearly struggling to breathe and walk - and she is due the same time as me. Hmmmmm. Ok so maybe I'm not that bad after all....

Apparently all 3 of us in the family were late and had to be induced. So I'm guessing I might be going down that path.

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How far along? 38 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Last weight at 63.5 kgs, haven't had the chance to weigh myself. But i definitely have been eating a bit since mum arrived.

Maternity clothes? Yes! Wearing the same old outfits day in and out. Decided that i'll just wear hoodies and jumpers and lots of scarf rather than buying new coats. Also tracky daks and dressing gown when i'm home.

Stretch marks? Yes :( Right on 38 weeks the stretch marks appear. It's low on the tummy so I'm guessing because baby dropped. It's was a little upsetting but I've resigned to it and am repeating to myself that i should be thankful i only started getting them late in pregnancy!

Symptoms: 2 nights of sleeplessness and carrying low. There are still occasions when I get breathless and can't get comfortable. Other than that I'm feeling good!

Sleep:  Two nights of sleeplessness over the weekend and I'm back to having good sleep. All it took was a warm shower before bedtime and new bedsheets!

Best moment these 2 weeks: Went back to work on Friday to say hello to my workmates and hungout with them. That was fun. Also been spending everything day with my mommy friends. I feel like i have some sort of support system in place, which is assuring.

Have you told family and friends: Yes! Actively posting on Instagram :)

Miss Anything? Sashimi these days. And being slim and not being squashed.

Movement: Baby is head down and engaged! At my last appointment the doctor says she is still even lower. Which i already knew. I can feel her when i walk sometimes. Thankfully I am not waddling yet! She is also moving a little bit more!

Food cravings: Vegetable and fruits. i don't eat enough of them these days. I still can't say i have cravings - more like food aversions (what I definitely don't want to eat!) Oh and thanks to mum - i now feel like durian.


Anything making you queasy or sick: Still the smell of cooking meat :( Mum has taken over the cooking duties so I am praying she doesn't cooking too much overpowering smells!

Baby is a: GIRL!

Belly Button in or out? Half in and out? hehe! 


Wedding rings on or off? On. Doesn't look like my finger are going to swell.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy today after a week of anxiety at the thought of mum being over. It's ok. i think we will be ok as long as I get enough sleep and not be too impatient.

Looking forward to: Sunny days! It's been raining and gloomy since mum arrived. It was also the coldest weekend for the year! Mum was getting restless, so am I! I want to walk in a park while I still can!

34 weeks

Post baby shower - we finally have some time to reflect and focus on baby. This week was also the last of our antenatal class, 5 weeks of 3 hour Tuesday night sessions going though birth prep, birth options and parenting. Whilst it was tiring (6-9pm after work!) it was also very informational and helped Twitchy and I think about things and know what to expect. It was also quite reassuring to be in a same room with 12 other couples.

Now that everything else is done and dusted, it's all about baby and preparing for baby!

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How far along? 34 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Last time I saw the OBGYN, I am 60.5 kgs, which means a weight gain of 12kgs.

Maternity clothes? Yes! Wearing the same old outfits day in and out. It's also beginning to get really cold (it's the last week of Autumn) and most of my coats can't button. And all my fat coats are left in Canberra! Truly is a first world problem as I really don't want to but coats that I'd only wear for a month (and I intend to not be this big post baby).

Stretch marks? Not sure. Still applying lots of Clarins oil at night and the occasional cream in the day/after shower. Tummy gets really red some days, i don't know if its from the clothes/leggings I wear irritating and chafing the skin or stretch mark related....

Symptoms: In my last update, I was convinced that my ribs hurt, but since my last checkup with the OBGYN, I've been told it's actually my muscle being stretched. I actually the muscles tore a little as the pain is constant now. The only way I am mediating it is to have light meals or to go lie down after a heavy meal. My pimples are back! And I can no longer stand around too long, my back hurts after an hour of activity.

Sleep:  Still the best sleep of my life. I've never looked forward to going to bed everyday. This is even with the 2-3 trips I make to the toilet in the middle of my sleep! Although I am beginning to get the odd night or two where I feel restless.

Best moment these 2 weeks: Baby Shower and Housewarming was fun! The dessert table was divine. I think every girl deserves to have a dessert table decked up at least once in her life. It was also a good opportunity to have everyone visiting and looking at our place. Some of our friends were also so generous to buy expensive items from our gift registry! It was also my birthday and I enjoyed my quiet bday this year - just with my love.

Have you told family and friends: Yes. I've also uploaded pictures on fb, though not "publishing" to the wider audience. My tummy has popped too - so it is pretty obvious I'm about to become a mummy. Had a few comments from strangers about how cute I look and how pregnancy agrees with me? Hmmmm

Miss Anything? i miss having more energy and going for a run. I can't do as much as I'd like to. The mind says "let's go!". the body says "no". :(

Movement: Baby is now head down! We're all set! Lots of movements and sometimes I see a 45 degree rise on one side of the tummy. She loves stretching. and I've felt her soft feet a couple of times now. Baby is also very shy. She was very quiet when there were lots of people around at the baby shower. She prefers being in family grounds, just me & Twitchy!

Food cravings: Vegetable and fruits. i don't eat enough of them these days. and have the having too much carbs, i think! I still can't say i have cravings - more like food aversions (what I definitely don't want to eat!)


Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of the bbq didn't make me sick at the housewarming. and I ate some of the chicken! We had a team planning day at the bosses' place and we had indian for dinner. Can't say I'm a fan. Which is strange. I usually loveeeee my curry.

Have you started to show yet: Yes! I have a big tummy and it's getting in everyone's way. I'm a bit cheeky that way - using it to bump Twitchy around.

Baby is a: GIRL!

Belly Button in or out? Still In. Getting shallower. I still have a feeling it will pop soon. 


Wedding rings on or off? On. Doesn't look like my finger are going to swell.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy and euphoric. We bought a whole new tv system yesterday (tv, sound system), blur ray and wall mounts. We have talked about buying it for a while, but didn't think it will happen as we were trying to save some money for the baby. But did it anyway! Then we bought our first big baby items - pram, bassinet & car capsule! Woo Hoo! Also have been receiving baby registry items so we are getting there. Finally getting all prepped for BABY!

Looking forward to: ......continuing to furnish baby room, buying baby items & finishing up work in 2 weeks!

A little bit more upbeat

Ok that was a low point, perhaps I was being hormonal. But all good now. who cares if the house is in a mess or not perfect?We'll make do!

There, don't I sound a little more upbeat? Since my last post the house has been tidied, most of our junk has been put away or hidden. Work has been a little stressful last week (there was an event in Perth) and I could feel my body (and baby) stressing from being stressed too!

So I decided to go on my maternity leave a week earlier than expected. Come June 10, I will be home resting! Looking forward to it as my ribs are beginning to hurt and so does my back! :(

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How far along? 32 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: + 11kgs. Last check was at the OBGYN 10 days ago. I am now seeing my doctor every 2 weeks.

Maternity clothes? No more shopping for me, I think. Time to make do with what i've bought and big loose clothing.

Stretch marks? Not yet! Still applying lots of Clarins oil at night and the occasional cream in the day/after shower.  I think it helps. I still feel stretched though.

Symptoms: My ribs still hurt after meals and the back hurts when I've been sitting or standing for too long. I feel better after a bit of a lie down. Oh...and finally some heartburn when I sleep at night! I've been woken up by the pain last 3 nights!

Sleep:  Still getting good sleep despite the heartburn. I merely shift positions and it helps. Also getting up to pee doesn't bother me that much.

Best moment this week: Stayed home on Wednesday. Took a sick day. Best decision ever, as my back was hurting me a fair bit at work. At least it's easier to get comfy at home. Also today I had TWO naps! Morning and evening! haha!. My preggie bellies class has also ended - and I have mixed reactions. It was a bit of a hassle to go to class, and It's getting a little harder. At the same time it kept me fit and active....i can just feel the fat flab growing on me now...


Have you told family and friends: Yes.

Miss Anything? This week I miss having cheese. Soft camembert cheese!

Movement: Baby's really active and strong. I get combo kicks periodically as well as waves moving from side to side of my belly! Cool and freaky at the same time.

Food cravings: I'm in the mood to having good food but I dread eating - the rib pain after is not worth the discomfort.


Anything making you queasy or sick: Not sure about the smell of meat being cooked anymore. Our kitchen still hasn't been set up so we hardly have been cooking. Though some strong curry smell from work made me a little sick the other day.


Have you started to show yet: Yes! I have a big tummy and it's getting in everyone's way. I'm still a bit cheeky that way - using it to bump Twitchy around.

Baby is a: GIRL!

Belly Button in or out? Still In. Getting shallower. I have a feeling it will pop soon. 


Wedding rings on or off? On. Doesn't look like my finger are going to swell.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy now! and I am taking lots of care to ensure i am well rested!

Looking forward to: My birthday tomorrow. We don't have much planned for my birthday this year as I just don't feel like having a bit one. Twitchy is taking me out for dinner and I think it's good enough for me! Oh and work is throwing my a baby shower/birthday lunch tomorrow - that would be nice!

31 Weeks

Past two weeks have been madness. We moved to our new home! Amidst the moving, the settling in, going to work and trying to get used to a new foreign place - life has been pretty hectic.

We took a 5 day long weekend over Anzac day, and even by spending everyday unpacking and tidying - the house is still not in place!

Oh we also managed to squeeze in a one-night trip to Cbr to vote. Yes - my first and last ever vote for the home country. What an experience.

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How far along? 31 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: + 15kgs. (haven't weighed myself in a while - but i have a feeling I've grown a bit)

Maternity clothes? Yes! bought myself a new dress over the weekend. New bra and a new haircut! Been feeling like a dag for a while now....

Stretch marks? Not yet! Still applying lots of Clarins oil at night and the occasional cream in the day/after shower.  I think it helps. I feel stretched though

Symptoms: My ribs hurt! Especially after a meal. I think the stomach pushes the uterus towards my ribs. Either that or baby likes to sit there. My back hurts from standing too long - which i did a lot when we were tidying and unpacking. I even did some heavy lifting during the few days we went crazy at ikea. Stupid move. I was alright - but in a hindsight, what a stupid thing to do. Constipation is back too - which is a pain. Anyway - i'm still glowing, the hair is still healthy (even better after the haircut!)

Sleep:  Still the best sleep of my life. I've never looked forward to going to bed everyday. This is even with the 2-3 trips I make to the toilet in the middle of my sleep! Although I am beginning to get the odd night or two where I feel restless.

Best moment these 2 weeks: Nesting in full bloom. Been furnishing the place and dreaming of how else we can "do it up". This is so much fun! If only we have more money....

Have you told family and friends: Yes. I've also uploaded pictures on fb, though not "publishing" to the wider audience. My tummy has popped too - so it is pretty obvious I'm about to become a mummy.

Miss Anything? i miss alcohol. Work has been crazy and stressful - was totally hanging for a Gin and Tonic to take the edge off......

Movement: Felt baby's feet the other day - that's crazy! Baby doesn't kick as much but definitely moves a fair bit and is super strong too! Oh had 3 slices of cake the other day and that set baby off on a 20-second non0stop kick. Whoops!

Food cravings: None. I dread eating - the rib pain after is not worth the discomfort.


Anything making you queasy or sick: Not sure about the smell of meat being cooked anymore. Our kitchen still hasn't been set up so we hardly have been cooking. Though some strong curry smell from work made me a little sick the other day.


Have you started to show yet: Yes! I have a big tummy and it's getting in everyone's way. I'm a bit cheeky that way - using it to bump Twitchy around.

Baby is a: GIRL!

Belly Button in or out? Still In. Getting shallower. I have a feeling it will pop soon. 


Wedding rings on or off? On. Doesn't look like my finger are going to swell.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Highly stressed at the moment. Work is still busy and is taking a toll on me. I'm also finding that I'd rather stay home (in our new home) than work....Today I've advised work that I'm taking off a week earlier for my maternity leave. So my last day is the 7th of June! Between now and then, if things get too hard I might just get the OBGYN to give me MC to stay home.

Looking forward to: ......and Baby shower/house warming party in 3 weeks and my birthday in 2 weeks. Wow. and to continue fixing up the place and finally buying baby stuff!

28 Weeks

Filling this in at 2am - I've just realised I haven't consistently documented the pregnancy and I've just entered my third trimester! Whoa time flies!

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How far along? 28 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: + 11kgs. (yup I've put on a fair bit since week 21. especially from week 26 onwards)

Maternity clothes? Yes! Mainly pants/skirts. I can still fit into my t-shirts but my tops are getting a little tighter!

Stretch marks? Not yet! Although when I was in Perth at 26/27 weeks, I thought I saw (and felt) a red mark appear on the side. Could be due to dehydration - it's gone now. Still applying lots of Clarins oil at night and the ocassional cream in the day/after shower.  I think it helps.

Symptoms: No headaches. It's been smooth for the past few weeks (week 24-28). I suppose if I were to mention a symptom, it would be stretching pains the past 2 weeks? Round ligament pains? Also a huge growth spurt (for me) between week 26-28. Possibly due to the amount of food consumed in Perth and in Canberra for Easter (the mothers spoil me way too much)! My hair and nails are fabulous - Finally benefitting from the hormones. Pimples seem to have stopped too - I don't know if it's the new organic exfoliant or the hormones are giving me a break. I know I glow. I can see it when I take pictures.

Sleep:  Still the best sleep of my life. I've never looked forward to going to bed everyday. This is even with the 2-3 trips I make to the toilet in the middle of my sleep! Although I am beginning to get the odd night or two where I feel restless.

Best moment this week: Getting keys to the new place. Let the nesting begin!

Have you told family and friends: Yes. I've also uploaded pictures on fb, though not "publishing" to the wider audience. My tummy has popped too - so it is pretty obvious I'm about to become a mummy.

Miss Anything? Sashimi! Twitchy made the best tuna sushi over the weekend. Best ever! Given the circumstances. I love my husband - the things he did for me.

Movement: Baby is back to being active. She slowed down a little during 26-27 week, but still kicking when I lay down at night. Oh and I can feel where baby is, she is getting much bigger! The movements are a lot different too. Hiccups, vibrations and slow movement from left to right.... It's move obvious when she changes position - and we sometimes can feel parts of her the body on my tummy. She moves when we give it a pat/rub!

Food cravings: Not really. I have to say I got Twitchy to make me eggs on toast at 4am last Saturday. I was just feeling.....hungry! Twitchy ended up making himself eggs on toast too... 


Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of meat being cooked - Still! or the smell of raw meat. Yuck!


Have you started to show yet: Yes! Pretty obvious I am. In fact I had a growth spurt from week 26-28. My tummy is getting bigger and I am getting clumsier. Bumped the tummy into things as I keep underestimating my size/agility.

Baby is a: GIRL!

Belly Button in or out? In. Getting shallower. I have a feeling it will pop soon. 


Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! but stressed. Moving homes, work (so hectic) and the urgent need to nest and yet trying to save money for a rainy day. Let's face it. There will be lots of rainy days coming up.

Looking forward to: My 28 week check up on Friday. Went for my GTT blood test last week - the one where I have to drink think sugary/lemonade drink and wait (yes literally wait) for an hour before I get my blood tested. I'd know of results this Friday when I see the OBGYN......and Baby shower/house warming party in May.

Before I went to Perth

After 4 days, 5 nights in Perth and 2 nights in Canberra!

Mid Week 27

24 weeks

Wow. The past two weeks I think baby underwent a little growth spurt. And I can now say, I've popped! I am now visibly pregnant though I'm still trying to hide at work..hehe! Worst kept secret, maybe? Nobody has actually walked up to me to asked - but maybe they all know but are not talking about it. My closest workmates and team, know about it, of course.

Three girls that I'm close to at work even took me out to lunch and got me presents. They called it a mini baby shower. How sweet are they? I have to admit, in this work I haven't made much effort to hang out and socialise with people. Well who'd have time with planning a wedding, honeymoon and not a baby?! Anyway, I was just reminded how I missed having close gfs at work. They are as close as they can get. Not good enough I think. Need to try harder. One day I will.

Back to baby. Wow. Baby girl sure is active. She is constantly moving, kicking, flipping (i think - it felt as though I'm sitting on a rollercoaster, on a hill drop) and then there are vibrations. I think the vibrations are hiccups, not sure about it. She also seem to respond to Twitchy's voice. When he says hello to her, she tends to kick or move towards him. The belly movement freaks me out at times. I guess it's now a good time for baby to swim around - there's space. I can't imagine what's going to happen in a couple of months!

I'm doing well, though work does get me a little tired some days. It's mental exhaustion. And I do get a little agitated. I've only put on about 7kgs, which is not too bad. I do hope I don't exceed 11 kgs for this pregnancy though....

Oh and i bought baby her first pair of booties! I knew everyone would not be able to resist buying cute baby clothes but I really wanted to be the first to buy our baby something. So here it is. Teeny Tiny fluffy booties! Aren't they the cutest?!

Baby's first booties

Apart from that, we haven't been shopping for baby. I figured I'd wait till we move to our new home (4th May!) before I start buying items. After all, we don't have much space at our current place.

So we're moving homes, we sold the bachelor beemer, are shopping around for an SUV, visited his parents - his dad was in hospital for a surgery - and I have a baby shower to plan.

Phew! Life sure is happening all at once!

20 weeks

Saturday morning and we woke up nice and early. I had a sleepless night, being a little anxious.....

It was our 20 week ultrasound appointment, also known as the gender scan!

So we got to the ultrasound place, and spent almost an hour looking at all of baby's anatomy.

What a cheeky baby we had, it sure was being a handful - don't think baby like being scanned. Every time we tried to take a good picture of the heart, baby would move or block with its hands. Same with the face - baby keeps turning away from the u/s, or cover with its hands. And baby would actively move around. Sure kept the ultrasound technician on her toes!

But it was all good. Baby has a healthy heart, and all organs are growing very well. I breathed a sigh a relief!

Most excitingly, baby's a girl!

A girl, a girl, a girl to call my own!

Kick kick and kick some more!

Baby is a few days short of 20 weeks. Gosh, what an active Baby I have in my belly.

What started off as a few kicks after dinner, while lying down at 18 weeks quickly progressed to kick every few hours ( regardless of what I'm doing) today! Last Thursday/Friday, I was just thinking how odd it is to have baby kick me while I'm sitting down at work. Today I even felt baby kicking as I have my dinner!

As odd as it is, I am thankful to feel baby kicking. It's very reassuring to me. To know baby is active, happy and hopefully healthy in my belly.

3 days till we find out if baby K is a he or she!

Quick survey and everyone seem to think we're having a girl! We shall soon see :)

Scare

What a Friday. 1st February is one I will remember for a long time. Woke up feeling tired. Tummy felt odd. Despite it all, I decided to go to work because I had an important social event to organise.

Big mistake.

By 11 am, I was fighting back tears, doubling up in pain at work. It started off with a headache at work. I've had that before, so I thought I'd have sometime to eat. A banana. Not long after I started having sharp tummy pains. That gave me a shock - as I've never had that before. I got all terrified for the baby.

Told the boss I had to go. I was truly sorry I couldn't organise the event. But the pain and the scare ( and probably hormones) got to me and soon got tears started rolling down my eyes. He got really alarmed and told me to head home.

Soon I couldn't stop crying so he walked me out to catch a cab. Poor boss. I'm so sorry to show this side of me. Wish I didn't. I don't like being made to look like a softie.

Made it home and immediately laid on the couch. Rang the midwife, who says my tummy pains are too far up to be related to the babe. Besides, I had no bleeding, no nausea and no diarrhoea. So she just advised me to go on bed rest and see how I feel when I get up.

I did feel better lying down. But could n't stop crying in the afternoon. What a scare! Am I truly ready to be a mum? Am I ok to endure a lot more pain that is coming my way? Will I be able to survive work? Is baby truly ok?

(Baby was alright. Felt a few reassuring kicks in the evening.)

I am still a little traumatised by the experienced. I hope I'll be ok soon.

16 weeks

It's been a while since my last scan. 

Amidst all the sadness with Baby V, and work and an incident of my walking into a fan and hitting my tummy one night (yes it really did happen).....I was scared, at the back of my mind. I was counting down the days till my next ultrasound, which is TODAY!

To my immense relief, there it is. Baby K, lying contently waving its hands at me. And what a strong heartbeat baby had! Our next screening is on Valentines Day, when we'll find our the gender. Yes Twitchy wants to know. And I think it's nice to know too...

On another note. I think I finally popped. There is a small baby bump, and it became obvious over the past 2 days, when I got to 16 weeks! No pictures yet. Tomorrow, maybe?

How we are going

A 3:30am post.

Week 14 (last week) was the strangest week ever. Woke up one morning and behold - I felt the most unpregnant ever! Was a bundle of energy, went to bed late (10:30pm!), no nausea and no bloat! I felt so good. But after 2-3 days, I got a little worried - what is wrong with me?

Yes, this is so typically me. Miss worry-wart. Anyway, I had to take a breather and pace myself to enjoy it. Was also reassured by bff who says "Nothing. Welcome to your second trimester!"So I had a pretty good week/weekend, being super productive and active.

Week 15 started the same.
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When I got that call about baby V, my insecurities came right back up. Am I ok? Should I get a doppler to find the heartbeat? Once again had to take a breather and to tell myself to chill out! Instead, Twitchy and I went for a long walk by the beach and had Ben & Jerrys!

Today (i mean yesterday - being up at 3am still counts as the night before), I was suddenly hit with a headache. It's not your typical pounding headache, but uncomfortable nevertheless. Reduced me to being in bed the entire afternoon. Which wasn't so bad - I read a book and listened to the rain. Sipped on hubby's coke during dinner, and felt 100% better! Caffeine really is the remedy when you have preppy headaches!

On, and another update - I think I can finally feel and glimpse the bump. Which is exciting, because before this, I don't really look pregnant. Just felt pregnant and fat (when i have only gained 2 kgs).

OBGYN appointment in 4 days, will be looking forward to seeing mini K then!

And that's a wrap

It's the last day of 2012! Normally at this time of the year I'd be gearing up to party hard. But with a bun in the oven - I'm crossing my fingers that I would be all right and awake to watch the fireworks.

It's a busy day ahead. Instead of our usual beach house getaway, we'll be at Coogee beach, and possibly staying over at our friend's place, who are heavy drinkers and smokers.

Have I mentioned how sensitive my sense of smell is these days? When Twitchy has more than a beer, he has to resort to sleeping in the living room. The smell is too much to bear!

It's tempting to sit out this New Years Eve, but gotta be a good sport about this, don't we?

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13 Weeks and 6 days

Little bun is now 13 weeks and 6 days. I'm now on my second trimester and nausea has eased up a little. (still creeps up when I fail to eat on time). We survived Xmas in Canberra. Had a 13 hour sleep one night - a result from a morning walk and an evening walk. I am easily breathless from walking up a hill. Typical Xmas, ate too much and tummy got a little stretched and uncomfortable.

Prior to Xmas, I had my 12 week ultrasound. Lil bun was the cutest thing ever. We got a little wave, and its hands were constantly touching its face/nose. Because lil bun was sedentary, I was told to give a little cough. When I did, it moved a little and decided to turn to its side. Mooning us in the process. Ahhhh what a cheeky little bun!

Hunger or Nausea?

Never thought I'd get to the day where I don't know if I'm extremely hungry or just nauseous. 

Sometimes it's both. Which is, bizarre!

Morning sickness is at its peak and I find it so hard to concentrate on functioning. What more being at work and pretending to be normal. Maybe that's here pregnancy brain comes in.

Morale's a little low, as you can probably tell. I feel like crap, the tummy's bloated from all the carbs (thats all I ever want to eat these days) and I feel like I'm expanding. Rapidly!

Heartbeat

I saw my little one today. And the little one's heartbeat.

Wow... It really is happening!

When something so significant happens in your life, you just become speechless.

8 weeks

I admit, the last time I wrote about baby, I was already late.1 week late.

Today I'm still late.

And ... 3 home test kits later, it can't possible be wrong, right?

We aren’t really trying, we just aren’t preventing

Having just been married, the conversation often revolves around when we plan to have kids.

What a dilemma.  Kids, inevitably would change your life (for good and bad). Whilst I like the thought of having them, I'd be first to admit. I am scared shitless!

On one hand, we're in the best shape of our lives, we've just survived 9 months of crazy wedding planning and could do with my "us" time. I'd love to party! On the other hand, we're not getting any younger, I'd hate to be an "old" mom and if I want more than 3 kids, we should probably get started.

We've had many conversations, mostly around me telling Mr Twitchy that having a baby is not as easy as it seems. Him, like all men, seem to think it's just the matter of doing it and getting it done. Not so much from what I see. I've seem friends who struggle for years, who remain childless. And I can't imagine the thought of wanting some but not being able to.

So we're letting nature takes its course.