Bora Bora Paradise

It's day 4 of our honeymoon and I thought I'd post a note to self. I really made it here and it's as beautiful and even better than I thought! All those pictures of Bora Bora: no photoshop is required!

For the past few days, we spa'ed, jet ski'ed, went on a jeep safari up 3 peaks (that was exhilarating) and even had a photographer in tow while we toured the lagoon and snorkeled. Ahhhh what bliss.

It isn't all roses of course. Both of us were struck with food poisoning( or maybe alcohol poisoning ) before we got here. So the few days leading to the honeymoon and our journey over was quite horrendous.

Spent day 1 recovering. Day 2&3 was fantastic but Twitchy was down again with food poisoning on day 4.which is today. So what did I do? I went on a photography excursion around the hotel. All by myself.

Enjoy!

First class in a budget airline

Twitchy and I flew first class on a budget airline. Well, it's as first class as it gets in that plane. Our chair reclined to a bed! Ahhhh the luxury. I could get use to this. Traveling in style and comfort.

Married

As of 220912

The night before

Lying here in bed on the 69th floor of an apartment on the eve of the wedding - what a surreal feeling. A culmination of 9 months of prep. Of blood, sweat and many tears.

Yes, many would say a wedding is just a night of your life, and that marriage is is of far more importance but still....wow. I'm getting married!!!!

Amazing.

Zoo

One of the absolute must-do that I always recommend to my Sydney visitors is going to the zoo. Our glorious Taronga Zoo. And today we actually went to the zoo - the first of zoos to come for my 3 year old nephew.

We were joined by my future sis in law and future nephew & niece (can't wait to remove the term future). So as you can imagine, a 2 year old, a 3 year old AND a 4 year old. All racing through the zoo! Kids make fast friends and by the end of the day my poor nephew was quite attached to his new mates and couldn't wait to see them again!

... And poor Aunty Esther is reeling from exhaustion. Me want me time. Maybe i should sit in a corner. Like the boss below.

4 sleeps to go!

My life is the mother of all hectic at the moment. Every spare moment is spent wedding planning. When not wedding planning, I am entertaining my guests, early arrivals for the wedding. With so much that is happening, I am a little lost, and whingy, tired and I crave some me time. Or some us time :(

But twitchy says we have a lifetime of us time. And we should soak in every experience we have, instead of wishing them away. My fiancé, the wise one.

Can't wait to be your Mrs.

Xx

15 days!

We are now 15 days from the very big day.

Apart from being sick, we've been so busy!

Pick up rings - done

Deliver cake toppers to the cake lady - done

Bridal gown fitting - done

Attend a marriage preparation course - in progress

Wow, what an experience. This would be my first "therapy-like" consultation. You know, like the ones you see on TV, when people see a psychologist and sit on a couch while you are being analysed. Except that in real life, the psychologist seem to talk a little more. It can be a little daunting, being put under a spotlight. Almost as though you are forced to reflect everything you do and question who you are. But thats the entire purpose isn't it? Find out who you are and what you reflect as a couple.

Learn our wedding dance - in progress

It really has been fun, learning a dance routine and dancing in sync! Now all we can hope for is that we don't forget out steps

All the big stuff's done. Just the little tiny bits that need attending and refining, like meeting and briefing the suppliers. And wedding shopping, getting all out accessories done. 

Our nights are pretty much packed till the very big day.

How do I feel?

Occasionally, I have pockets of euphoria and excitement. After all, we are getting married!!! Then at times I am a nervous wreck. Then I get all anxious because I fear I am not sitting back and enjoying myself as I should. All these plus the fact that I have been so sick.....

Wow....weddings!

Lurgy

Been down with the flu since...my hens! Which is more than 2 weeks now. I just can't seem to get any better and my spirits are sinking lower and lower as the day goes by.

The wedding's 15 days away, and here I am fighting to get well.

I can't feel anything except anxiety. Please please please let me be well again. I need the energy, the strength and stamina to get through this.

My Hens night

Had the best hens night ever, and it was for me! There is just something about getting your fav girls together and being naughty around town.

😜

Success

I am immensely proud of myself!

I did it!!!

Cryptic post

I am nervous. And embarrassed. I am a procrastinator. And I can't hide anymore.

Tomorrow is that day I face my fears and do something I really should have done a long long time ago.

Wish me luck.

Busy busy bee

So I'm clocking in at 530am in kl at the moment, took the night flight and arrived in the wee hours of the morning. All this for a 3 day weekend here. For BFF2's wedding and to sort out last minute prep for my kl one.

So I wouldn't call this a leisure trip,more like a work/diplomatic one. I can only hope it's a good trip.

Mum. Need I elaborate more?

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All things aside, celebrate Twitchy's birthday just yesterday and we both realized- its 72 days until the big day!
Until then it's plans every weekend, so many things to do, so many places to go....rock and roll baybeh!

...just don't stop with the redbull.

Reading our vows

Reading and picking my vows has made me super excited for the big day, that is....less than 3 months away!

OMG I can't believe it, I am getting married!

....I never thought I'm such a stickler for tradition and etiquette. And it seems like Mr Twitchy's like that too. It's amazing how much you learn about yourself as you start organising towards a massive occasion like this!

Bridezilla moment 1

I'm having a meltdown. Invitations that were printed came out looking cheap and tacky!

Welcome to the world

Sitting here at the airport, gathering my thoughts. Once again was tapped on the shoulder to come down for work. Two days, one night, leading up to the big preso. As reluctant as I was to actually be here again, I don't have much choice. And just as I suspected, my presence is really just a presence, to hold the bosses hand and help here and there where required.

Got to the Melbourne airport early Wednesday morning and saw THE text. BFF's water broke and she's in labour. 36 hours later, and with my work duties finally done, Baby S arrives!!!

So with 4 hours to go before my flight I hopped on a cab across town ( west to east) and got to the hospital, where I fumbled my way around. Baby S had only been here for an hour!

BFF hubby let me in the birthing suite and convinced me to just pop in. And I did. What a vision. BFF looking so serene and Baby S being so settled. I promptly cried....BFF thought I was being silly but I just couldn't help it. It's the most beautiful scene in the world!

What a feeling!

Daddy K and I shared a moment after. Where we just didn't say much but to stand outside and look stunned.

Baby S,

You probably know it but you're the luckiest baby in the world. You will be so spoiled with love and care, not only by your mum, dad and family but from Aunty E too.

I am so blessed to be able to meet you so soon and even more being able to be with my BFF, that's your mum, to share such a lovely, tender moment.

A moment I will treasure for life.

Love,
Aunt E

...

Today our closest and dearest friends, who have been together for 5 years announced that they are separating because HE wanted to move overseas. It's something he's always wanted to do but obviously the plans didn't involve her, or never did...

I knew him way before her. But she became one of my closest friends. One whom I trusts, one whom I regard really highly of. They are both in our bridal party.

When they broke the news to us, I felt like crying. I know she's breaking inside but keeping a strong front.

They probably don't know how much I am affected by it. But I feel nothing but pain. I held it all together until when I got back to the car, and sadness overcame me.

This song is one she sang once, and I shall forever remember this as she sang it with so much heartfelt, even months ago, that I tear up whenever I listen to it.

Jar of Hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

Happy 10 years

Tonight we celebrated 10 years of being together. Everyday I love you even more, Twitchy.

Never again

I hate hate hate my life at the moment. I'm still sick- its been 2 weeks now. Diet is non existent. Lonely as hell, no social life since I get home from work at 7pm and try to rest up to get well.

And I'm still sick! So worn out, so depressed. I hate my work!

Lonely and sick

I haven't really mention it before but I was summoned in Melbourne for the month of May, to manage a bid.

This came as a huge shock because:

1) I wasn't given much notice- 3 days, in fact
2) I had no idea what I was in for - I was basically told to come down and help out
3) I don't do bids!! I have done bids early on in my career, but not managing them. It's beyond what I usually do
4) I am reporting to the Big Boss, which means I had to drop everything I was working on to work on this. And when I get back to my old job, my boss would have left for his month long hols
5) I turn 30, and have lots left to do on my wedding prep

Needless to say, I wasn't keen at all! It is a good job opportunity, proving myself to the company and doing the best I can. And I get to be in Melbourne- heavily preggers BFF is here, family here...

But I was torn. I was finally in the best shape of my life. I have a set routine and finally settling into life. I really don't want to be away from home!

.....

Anyway, here I am. It's been 2 weeks since i've been here... I went home the first weekend to celebrate my bday, then flew back to work on Monday.

Work is... Horrendous, yet satisfying. It has been an average of 12 hour workdays. 7 am to 7pm. I hardly see daylight. We commute 20kms to the west. Bid central is located on top of a depot in an industrial area. I got on top of work within days of being here. The team and the boss is a bit more calm with me managing the bid. So in that aspect, it has been rewarding.

However....I fell sick the beginning of week 2 and have been miserable since. It's hell, being alone in the hotel, without the comforts of home and nursing a fever, sore throat and flu.

It was an emotional roller coaster. Not one I share with anyone at work, but definitely a huge effect on me. I never thought I'd turn into one of those weak whining chicks but I did. It was just too difficult.

Fiancé popped by this weekend and we were both sick but it was still nice to have him around. And fiancé left today. And I broke.

How am I gonna survive another 2 weeks of being here?

30 and dirty?

So I had the bestest birthday ever! Threw an 80's theme party and had about 30 of my closest and dearest there. It was such a good feeling, to celebrate and rekindle some friendships that have been fading, well, not fading but kinda lost. Which seem imminent not that we're all older and busier lives.

Nevertheless I felt so loved, and am forever thankful to have people who care so much about me. My friends are my family and sometimes even closer than my family.

I love you all and I will always remember this special moment.