Having been here in Australia for the past 11 years, I still call myself a Malaysian. How can I not? How can I ever forget my roots, my family, friends and the beautiful memories I have growing up?
I never thought I would be living here, married to a local and most likely settling here. Back at uni, I thought I would be going home after. Little did I know that love comes a calling....
Anyway.... For the first time ever, I'll be voting in the general elections. Voting for a change, to end corruption, for equal rights in Malaysia. Doing this in the Malaysian High Commission. Am I nervous? Oh yeah! What can I expect?
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Sunday, April 21, 2013
First day at our new home
Oh how I love my new home. There's so much space! And it now takes 10 seconds to walk from the bedroom to the living room. How divine is that!?
True enough, even though I was away most of the move yesterday, the stress obviously took a toll on me. I had a few Braxton Hicks contractions in the middle of the night. My first ever!
I put it down to dehydration. It didn't hurt, just that I felt the tummy cramped up and harden for a couple of seconds. It all went away when I drank more water. Scary!
Anyway, here are some pictures of the new place!
True enough, even though I was away most of the move yesterday, the stress obviously took a toll on me. I had a few Braxton Hicks contractions in the middle of the night. My first ever!
I put it down to dehydration. It didn't hurt, just that I felt the tummy cramped up and harden for a couple of seconds. It all went away when I drank more water. Scary!
Anyway, here are some pictures of the new place!
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Move day!
Well, had the most restless night ever and woke up early feeling stressed. It's a terribly feeling, feeling helpless and not being to help. Worse still, I'm not even supposed to be around when we're moving! It's some weird Chinese superstition. And why do I choose to follow? Because I don't want to risk baby's life!
So I got out of home at 930, left Twitchy to do all the moving with the removalists and with a few friends. And went to the spa. Perhaps it was a good thing I left. I was beginning to feel really stressed. Oh and have I mentioned that its raining? Not light rain but torrential, even!
I drove off to the spa to get a facial done. pre facial- I was way restless and fidgety.
Post facial- I was way more relaxed. And then lunch w my two favourite girls!
Got to the new place at 2, and all the boxes were unpacked, but clutter clutter everywhere!
It'll take us a few days ( or even weeks) to get this sorted. I just gotta pace myself and take it easy.
So I got out of home at 930, left Twitchy to do all the moving with the removalists and with a few friends. And went to the spa. Perhaps it was a good thing I left. I was beginning to feel really stressed. Oh and have I mentioned that its raining? Not light rain but torrential, even!
I drove off to the spa to get a facial done. pre facial- I was way restless and fidgety.
Post facial- I was way more relaxed. And then lunch w my two favourite girls!
Got to the new place at 2, and all the boxes were unpacked, but clutter clutter everywhere!
It'll take us a few days ( or even weeks) to get this sorted. I just gotta pace myself and take it easy.
Last Night in our old place
It's midnight and I'm lying here awake in our old place. It's partly sentimental, partly excitement... And partly just me recovering from an awful day!
I don't really want to dwell into it but in a nutshell:
A high maintenance friend drove me mad by her insincerity.
A problem arised. Struggled to be diplomatic at work and bit my tongue to apologise despite it not being entirely my fault.
Disappointment because no one recognized how much good stuff I have done at work this week, a cumulation of months and weeks of hard work. Sigh.
... And the horror of finding out that a close friend has decided on a very similar name for her baby. Who is due in 2 weeks.
Which means Twitchy and I will have to pick another one. Bummer :( I had an inkling that it would be the case. It's inevitable, after all, you're close to people who are like-minded like you.
But geez. Would some one please cut me some slack this week?Anyone?
I'll get over it. I know I will. I have many things to be grateful about. The new place we're moving to. The good things coming our way... And baby K being healthy and kicking along! I just need to pick myself up, dust myself up and move along!
I don't really want to dwell into it but in a nutshell:
A high maintenance friend drove me mad by her insincerity.
A problem arised. Struggled to be diplomatic at work and bit my tongue to apologise despite it not being entirely my fault.
Disappointment because no one recognized how much good stuff I have done at work this week, a cumulation of months and weeks of hard work. Sigh.
... And the horror of finding out that a close friend has decided on a very similar name for her baby. Who is due in 2 weeks.
Which means Twitchy and I will have to pick another one. Bummer :( I had an inkling that it would be the case. It's inevitable, after all, you're close to people who are like-minded like you.
But geez. Would some one please cut me some slack this week?Anyone?
I'll get over it. I know I will. I have many things to be grateful about. The new place we're moving to. The good things coming our way... And baby K being healthy and kicking along! I just need to pick myself up, dust myself up and move along!
Friday, April 12, 2013
Moving home
Moving is always unsettling. In the past 10 years, I've moved at least 6 times. It's the life of renting.
But not anymore! Next weekend we move to our home. Hopefully will settle there for a good few years until we can afford a proper house. Yet, part of me is missing my current place already! I love this area. I love walking to work (well - i don't walk to work as much recently as I am getting bigger). Soon we will have to commute to work - 20 mins via train, i think. No more being close to the city.
I am also unable to help with the packing and unpacking of the move. My bump has grown so much over the past few days, i struggle to even catch my breath walking! I'm also a little clumsy these days - often underestimating how much space i need to allocate for my bump. Ooops!
So for my last weekend of being here - I will just sit back (try) and enjoy being here.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
28 Weeks
Filling this in at 2am - I've just realised I haven't consistently documented the pregnancy and I've just entered my third trimester! Whoa time flies!
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How far along? 28 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: + 11kgs. (yup I've put on a fair bit since week 21. especially from week 26 onwards)
Maternity clothes? Yes! Mainly pants/skirts. I can still fit into my t-shirts but my tops are getting a little tighter!
Stretch marks? Not yet! Although when I was in Perth at 26/27 weeks, I thought I saw (and felt) a red mark appear on the side. Could be due to dehydration - it's gone now. Still applying lots of Clarins oil at night and the ocassional cream in the day/after shower. I think it helps.
Symptoms: No headaches. It's been smooth for the past few weeks (week 24-28). I suppose if I were to mention a symptom, it would be stretching pains the past 2 weeks? Round ligament pains? Also a huge growth spurt (for me) between week 26-28. Possibly due to the amount of food consumed in Perth and in Canberra for Easter (the mothers spoil me way too much)! My hair and nails are fabulous - Finally benefitting from the hormones. Pimples seem to have stopped too - I don't know if it's the new organic exfoliant or the hormones are giving me a break. I know I glow. I can see it when I take pictures.
Sleep: Still the best sleep of my life. I've never looked forward to going to bed everyday. This is even with the 2-3 trips I make to the toilet in the middle of my sleep! Although I am beginning to get the odd night or two where I feel restless.
Best moment this week: Getting keys to the new place. Let the nesting begin!
Have you told family and friends: Yes. I've also uploaded pictures on fb, though not "publishing" to the wider audience. My tummy has popped too - so it is pretty obvious I'm about to become a mummy.
Miss Anything? Sashimi! Twitchy made the best tuna sushi over the weekend. Best ever! Given the circumstances. I love my husband - the things he did for me.
Movement: Baby is back to being active. She slowed down a little during 26-27 week, but still kicking when I lay down at night. Oh and I can feel where baby is, she is getting much bigger! The movements are a lot different too. Hiccups, vibrations and slow movement from left to right.... It's move obvious when she changes position - and we sometimes can feel parts of her the body on my tummy. She moves when we give it a pat/rub!
Food cravings: Not really. I have to say I got Twitchy to make me eggs on toast at 4am last Saturday. I was just feeling.....hungry! Twitchy ended up making himself eggs on toast too...
Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of meat being cooked - Still! or the smell of raw meat. Yuck!
Have you started to show yet: Yes! Pretty obvious I am. In fact I had a growth spurt from week 26-28. My tummy is getting bigger and I am getting clumsier. Bumped the tummy into things as I keep underestimating my size/agility.
Baby is a: GIRL!
Belly Button in or out? In. Getting shallower. I have a feeling it will pop soon.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! but stressed. Moving homes, work (so hectic) and the urgent need to nest and yet trying to save money for a rainy day. Let's face it. There will be lots of rainy days coming up.
Looking forward to: My 28 week check up on Friday. Went for my GTT blood test last week - the one where I have to drink think sugary/lemonade drink and wait (yes literally wait) for an hour before I get my blood tested. I'd know of results this Friday when I see the OBGYN......and Baby shower/house warming party in May.
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How far along? 28 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: + 11kgs. (yup I've put on a fair bit since week 21. especially from week 26 onwards)
Stretch marks? Not yet! Although when I was in Perth at 26/27 weeks, I thought I saw (and felt) a red mark appear on the side. Could be due to dehydration - it's gone now. Still applying lots of Clarins oil at night and the ocassional cream in the day/after shower. I think it helps.
Symptoms: No headaches. It's been smooth for the past few weeks (week 24-28). I suppose if I were to mention a symptom, it would be stretching pains the past 2 weeks? Round ligament pains? Also a huge growth spurt (for me) between week 26-28. Possibly due to the amount of food consumed in Perth and in Canberra for Easter (the mothers spoil me way too much)! My hair and nails are fabulous - Finally benefitting from the hormones. Pimples seem to have stopped too - I don't know if it's the new organic exfoliant or the hormones are giving me a break. I know I glow. I can see it when I take pictures.
Sleep: Still the best sleep of my life. I've never looked forward to going to bed everyday. This is even with the 2-3 trips I make to the toilet in the middle of my sleep! Although I am beginning to get the odd night or two where I feel restless.
Best moment this week: Getting keys to the new place. Let the nesting begin!
Have you told family and friends: Yes. I've also uploaded pictures on fb, though not "publishing" to the wider audience. My tummy has popped too - so it is pretty obvious I'm about to become a mummy.
Miss Anything? Sashimi! Twitchy made the best tuna sushi over the weekend. Best ever! Given the circumstances. I love my husband - the things he did for me.
Movement: Baby is back to being active. She slowed down a little during 26-27 week, but still kicking when I lay down at night. Oh and I can feel where baby is, she is getting much bigger! The movements are a lot different too. Hiccups, vibrations and slow movement from left to right.... It's move obvious when she changes position - and we sometimes can feel parts of her the body on my tummy. She moves when we give it a pat/rub!
Food cravings: Not really. I have to say I got Twitchy to make me eggs on toast at 4am last Saturday. I was just feeling.....hungry! Twitchy ended up making himself eggs on toast too...
Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of meat being cooked - Still! or the smell of raw meat. Yuck!
Have you started to show yet: Yes! Pretty obvious I am. In fact I had a growth spurt from week 26-28. My tummy is getting bigger and I am getting clumsier. Bumped the tummy into things as I keep underestimating my size/agility.
Baby is a: GIRL!
Belly Button in or out? In. Getting shallower. I have a feeling it will pop soon.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! but stressed. Moving homes, work (so hectic) and the urgent need to nest and yet trying to save money for a rainy day. Let's face it. There will be lots of rainy days coming up.
Looking forward to: My 28 week check up on Friday. Went for my GTT blood test last week - the one where I have to drink think sugary/lemonade drink and wait (yes literally wait) for an hour before I get my blood tested. I'd know of results this Friday when I see the OBGYN......and Baby shower/house warming party in May.
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| Before I went to Perth |
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| After 4 days, 5 nights in Perth and 2 nights in Canberra! |
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| Mid Week 27 |
Sunday, April 07, 2013
Keys to the new home
Exciting milestone of our life- we got our new home keys today!
We immediately checked out the place and were so pleased with our big purchase, I am so incredibly proud. Move in date is in 2 weeks and we have a million things we'd like to do before then. Paint, change locks and install new lights!
Gosh. Money sure is flying out of our pockets....
We immediately checked out the place and were so pleased with our big purchase, I am so incredibly proud. Move in date is in 2 weeks and we have a million things we'd like to do before then. Paint, change locks and install new lights!
Gosh. Money sure is flying out of our pockets....
Friday, March 29, 2013
26 weeks
About 6 months into the pregnancy and I am here sitting in the Perth Qantas Lounge. Flew over to see mum who is here on a holiday.
Everyone seems to think I am mad to travel but I didn't think too much of it. After all, it's only a 5 hour flight! Haha I kid, I thought I'd be alright. And I knew I would be.
Baby is happily kicking along while I indulge in all the good food and company over here. It's nice to hang out with family ;)
Everyone seems to think I am mad to travel but I didn't think too much of it. After all, it's only a 5 hour flight! Haha I kid, I thought I'd be alright. And I knew I would be.
Baby is happily kicking along while I indulge in all the good food and company over here. It's nice to hang out with family ;)
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Second biggest purchase of our lives
We bought a car!
After many weeks/months of test driving, we finally bought a car!
A brand spanking not-so-new (second hand) SUV that even I feel comfortable driving.
The exchange will probably happen Tuesday/Wednesday so stay tuned!
After many weeks/months of test driving, we finally bought a car!
A brand spanking not-so-new (second hand) SUV that even I feel comfortable driving.
The exchange will probably happen Tuesday/Wednesday so stay tuned!
Thursday, March 14, 2013
24 weeks
Wow. The past two weeks I think baby underwent a little growth spurt. And I can now say, I've popped! I am now visibly pregnant though I'm still trying to hide at work..hehe! Worst kept secret, maybe? Nobody has actually walked up to me to asked - but maybe they all know but are not talking about it. My closest workmates and team, know about it, of course.
Three girls that I'm close to at work even took me out to lunch and got me presents. They called it a mini baby shower. How sweet are they? I have to admit, in this work I haven't made much effort to hang out and socialise with people. Well who'd have time with planning a wedding, honeymoon and not a baby?! Anyway, I was just reminded how I missed having close gfs at work. They are as close as they can get. Not good enough I think. Need to try harder. One day I will.
Back to baby. Wow. Baby girl sure is active. She is constantly moving, kicking, flipping (i think - it felt as though I'm sitting on a rollercoaster, on a hill drop) and then there are vibrations. I think the vibrations are hiccups, not sure about it. She also seem to respond to Twitchy's voice. When he says hello to her, she tends to kick or move towards him. The belly movement freaks me out at times. I guess it's now a good time for baby to swim around - there's space. I can't imagine what's going to happen in a couple of months!
I'm doing well, though work does get me a little tired some days. It's mental exhaustion. And I do get a little agitated. I've only put on about 7kgs, which is not too bad. I do hope I don't exceed 11 kgs for this pregnancy though....
Oh and i bought baby her first pair of booties! I knew everyone would not be able to resist buying cute baby clothes but I really wanted to be the first to buy our baby something. So here it is. Teeny Tiny fluffy booties! Aren't they the cutest?!
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| Baby's first booties |
Apart from that, we haven't been shopping for baby. I figured I'd wait till we move to our new home (4th May!) before I start buying items. After all, we don't have much space at our current place.
So we're moving homes, we sold the bachelor beemer, are shopping around for an SUV, visited his parents - his dad was in hospital for a surgery - and I have a baby shower to plan.
Phew! Life sure is happening all at once!
Sunday, March 03, 2013
To the niece whom I'll never meet
Awful awful news. Baby actually has a cousin who is due to arrive in May. A cousin who will be her age. We were all filled with joy, thinking that we'd be raising two kids so close in age.
Unfortunately it wasn't meant to be. My brother and sis-in-law lost their baby at 28 weeks. SIL had high blood pressure and had an episode last week. Blurred vision and nausea. Confined to bed, she stayed there for a few days. When things didn't get any better, they went to see the doctor who then told them he couldn't hear the baby's heartbeat. Their baby had passed.
What happened after, is a series of heart-rending hours. Of when their baby had to be induced. Of praying that my SIL will survive and not suffer a stroke. Of finding out the gender of the baby (girl!). And finally for SIL to be safe and past the danger zone.
I didn't know how they will get through this - but I guess the saviour of all would be my 3 year old nephew, who would not comprehend this but would light up the dark with his laughter. And for the two of them to know they have one to live for, to continue on.
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Baby K is now 22 weeks! She's actively kicking away. And even got Twitchy in the cheek when he was trying to listen to a heartbeat 2 days ago. And yesterday got Twitchy in the mouth, when he was talking to the belly. Yes. Twitchy likes to converse with baby!
Baby kicks very strongly these days. Sometimes I'm amazed by how strong her kicks are! What's going to happen in a few weeks?!
Monday, February 25, 2013
21 Weeks!
I'm finally allowing myself to embrace baby and be happy! It's not that I've been unhappy, but I've been overly cautious - wary of things going wrong, etc.
But enough is enough. Time to be happy!
We bought a place and settlement will take place in about 20 days. Twitchy is finally about to sell his far in a few days (fingers crossed) Bye bye bachelor beemer! We're shopping around for a pram-friendly car...and I've got my eye on the X1.
But anyhooooo...here's whats happening with baby and me.
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How far along? 21 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: + 5.5 kgs (or about)
Maternity clothes? Yes, brought out the pants a week ago
Stretch marks? No not yet. I am religiously rubbing stretch marks cream every night before I sleep, and sometimes after I shower during the day. My favourite oil to date is the Clarins Huile Tonic. Not so much the Bio Oil - it sticks and smells too medicated.
Symptoms: Headaches once or twice a week but easily meditated with some Coke (coca-cola!) Caffeine's bad, I know but you try having a bad headache at work! Nausea is rare these days, though it stills happen when I don't eat in time!
Sleep: Best sleep of my life. I've never looked forward to going to bed everyday. This is even with the 2-3 trips I make to the toilet in the middle of my sleep!
Best moment this week: Getting excited thinking about the baby shower. I'm thinking late May!
Have you told family and friends: Yes and only ones I'm closest to in the office. No fb announcements.
Miss Anything? Sushi & Sashimi. Desperately!
Movement: Lots! Baby is very active especially when I am sitting still or lying down. Lately I notice baby reacts to sugar and caffeine...(uh oh)
Food cravings: Fruit! I sometimes crave refreshing fruits! i.e today it was watermelon.
Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of meat being cooked
Have you started to show yet: Yes! I've noticed people's eyes being drawn to my belly - which has never happened before. Even the car salesman congratulated us without asking.
Baby is a: GIRL!
Belly Button in or out? In - does it really pop out? huh?!?
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: 50/50. I do tend to get cranky at work. certain people annoys me
Looking forward to: seeing baby again in 2-3 weeks at the 24-week check up.
But enough is enough. Time to be happy!
We bought a place and settlement will take place in about 20 days. Twitchy is finally about to sell his far in a few days (fingers crossed) Bye bye bachelor beemer! We're shopping around for a pram-friendly car...and I've got my eye on the X1.
But anyhooooo...here's whats happening with baby and me.
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How far along? 21 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: + 5.5 kgs (or about)
Stretch marks? No not yet. I am religiously rubbing stretch marks cream every night before I sleep, and sometimes after I shower during the day. My favourite oil to date is the Clarins Huile Tonic. Not so much the Bio Oil - it sticks and smells too medicated.
Symptoms: Headaches once or twice a week but easily meditated with some Coke (coca-cola!) Caffeine's bad, I know but you try having a bad headache at work! Nausea is rare these days, though it stills happen when I don't eat in time!
Sleep: Best sleep of my life. I've never looked forward to going to bed everyday. This is even with the 2-3 trips I make to the toilet in the middle of my sleep!
Best moment this week: Getting excited thinking about the baby shower. I'm thinking late May!
Have you told family and friends: Yes and only ones I'm closest to in the office. No fb announcements.
Miss Anything? Sushi & Sashimi. Desperately!
Movement: Lots! Baby is very active especially when I am sitting still or lying down. Lately I notice baby reacts to sugar and caffeine...(uh oh)
Food cravings: Fruit! I sometimes crave refreshing fruits! i.e today it was watermelon.
Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of meat being cooked
Have you started to show yet: Yes! I've noticed people's eyes being drawn to my belly - which has never happened before. Even the car salesman congratulated us without asking.
Baby is a: GIRL!
Belly Button in or out? In - does it really pop out? huh?!?
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: 50/50. I do tend to get cranky at work. certain people annoys me
Looking forward to: seeing baby again in 2-3 weeks at the 24-week check up.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
20 weeks
Saturday morning and we woke up nice and early. I had a sleepless night, being a little anxious.....
It was our 20 week ultrasound appointment, also known as the gender scan!
So we got to the ultrasound place, and spent almost an hour looking at all of baby's anatomy.
What a cheeky baby we had, it sure was being a handful - don't think baby like being scanned. Every time we tried to take a good picture of the heart, baby would move or block with its hands. Same with the face - baby keeps turning away from the u/s, or cover with its hands. And baby would actively move around. Sure kept the ultrasound technician on her toes!
But it was all good. Baby has a healthy heart, and all organs are growing very well. I breathed a sigh a relief!
Most excitingly, baby's a girl!
A girl, a girl, a girl to call my own!
It was our 20 week ultrasound appointment, also known as the gender scan!
So we got to the ultrasound place, and spent almost an hour looking at all of baby's anatomy.
What a cheeky baby we had, it sure was being a handful - don't think baby like being scanned. Every time we tried to take a good picture of the heart, baby would move or block with its hands. Same with the face - baby keeps turning away from the u/s, or cover with its hands. And baby would actively move around. Sure kept the ultrasound technician on her toes!
But it was all good. Baby has a healthy heart, and all organs are growing very well. I breathed a sigh a relief!
Most excitingly, baby's a girl!
A girl, a girl, a girl to call my own!
Monday, February 11, 2013
Kick kick and kick some more!
Baby is a few days short of 20 weeks. Gosh, what an active Baby I have in my belly.
What started off as a few kicks after dinner, while lying down at 18 weeks quickly progressed to kick every few hours ( regardless of what I'm doing) today! Last Thursday/Friday, I was just thinking how odd it is to have baby kick me while I'm sitting down at work. Today I even felt baby kicking as I have my dinner!
As odd as it is, I am thankful to feel baby kicking. It's very reassuring to me. To know baby is active, happy and hopefully healthy in my belly.
3 days till we find out if baby K is a he or she!
Quick survey and everyone seem to think we're having a girl! We shall soon see :)
What started off as a few kicks after dinner, while lying down at 18 weeks quickly progressed to kick every few hours ( regardless of what I'm doing) today! Last Thursday/Friday, I was just thinking how odd it is to have baby kick me while I'm sitting down at work. Today I even felt baby kicking as I have my dinner!
As odd as it is, I am thankful to feel baby kicking. It's very reassuring to me. To know baby is active, happy and hopefully healthy in my belly.
3 days till we find out if baby K is a he or she!
Quick survey and everyone seem to think we're having a girl! We shall soon see :)
Saturday, February 02, 2013
Scare
What a Friday. 1st February is one I will remember for a long time. Woke up feeling tired. Tummy felt odd. Despite it all, I decided to go to work because I had an important social event to organise.
Big mistake.
By 11 am, I was fighting back tears, doubling up in pain at work. It started off with a headache at work. I've had that before, so I thought I'd have sometime to eat. A banana. Not long after I started having sharp tummy pains. That gave me a shock - as I've never had that before. I got all terrified for the baby.
Told the boss I had to go. I was truly sorry I couldn't organise the event. But the pain and the scare ( and probably hormones) got to me and soon got tears started rolling down my eyes. He got really alarmed and told me to head home.
Soon I couldn't stop crying so he walked me out to catch a cab. Poor boss. I'm so sorry to show this side of me. Wish I didn't. I don't like being made to look like a softie.
Made it home and immediately laid on the couch. Rang the midwife, who says my tummy pains are too far up to be related to the babe. Besides, I had no bleeding, no nausea and no diarrhoea. So she just advised me to go on bed rest and see how I feel when I get up.
I did feel better lying down. But could n't stop crying in the afternoon. What a scare! Am I truly ready to be a mum? Am I ok to endure a lot more pain that is coming my way? Will I be able to survive work? Is baby truly ok?
(Baby was alright. Felt a few reassuring kicks in the evening.)
I am still a little traumatised by the experienced. I hope I'll be ok soon.
Big mistake.
By 11 am, I was fighting back tears, doubling up in pain at work. It started off with a headache at work. I've had that before, so I thought I'd have sometime to eat. A banana. Not long after I started having sharp tummy pains. That gave me a shock - as I've never had that before. I got all terrified for the baby.
Told the boss I had to go. I was truly sorry I couldn't organise the event. But the pain and the scare ( and probably hormones) got to me and soon got tears started rolling down my eyes. He got really alarmed and told me to head home.
Soon I couldn't stop crying so he walked me out to catch a cab. Poor boss. I'm so sorry to show this side of me. Wish I didn't. I don't like being made to look like a softie.
Made it home and immediately laid on the couch. Rang the midwife, who says my tummy pains are too far up to be related to the babe. Besides, I had no bleeding, no nausea and no diarrhoea. So she just advised me to go on bed rest and see how I feel when I get up.
I did feel better lying down. But could n't stop crying in the afternoon. What a scare! Am I truly ready to be a mum? Am I ok to endure a lot more pain that is coming my way? Will I be able to survive work? Is baby truly ok?
(Baby was alright. Felt a few reassuring kicks in the evening.)
I am still a little traumatised by the experienced. I hope I'll be ok soon.
Monday, January 28, 2013
Our Big Day
Didn't think I'd get around to posting about our wedding day.
22.9.12
It was a bright beautiful day, with a high of 27degrees. All I remember of the day was smiling a lot, being very happy and it was just beautiful. The flowers, my bridal party, our shoot at the beach, the reception, our dance....Truly magical.
22.9.12
It was a bright beautiful day, with a high of 27degrees. All I remember of the day was smiling a lot, being very happy and it was just beautiful. The flowers, my bridal party, our shoot at the beach, the reception, our dance....Truly magical.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
16 weeks
It's been a while since my last scan.
Amidst all the sadness with Baby V, and work and an incident of my walking into a fan and hitting my tummy one night (yes it really did happen).....I was scared, at the back of my mind. I was counting down the days till my next ultrasound, which is TODAY!
To my immense relief, there it is. Baby K, lying contently waving its hands at me. And what a strong heartbeat baby had! Our next screening is on Valentines Day, when we'll find our the gender. Yes Twitchy wants to know. And I think it's nice to know too...
On another note. I think I finally popped. There is a small baby bump, and it became obvious over the past 2 days, when I got to 16 weeks! No pictures yet. Tomorrow, maybe?
Monday, January 14, 2013
How we are going
A 3:30am post.
Week 14 (last week) was the strangest week ever. Woke up one morning and behold - I felt the most unpregnant ever! Was a bundle of energy, went to bed late (10:30pm!), no nausea and no bloat! I felt so good. But after 2-3 days, I got a little worried - what is wrong with me?
Yes, this is so typically me. Miss worry-wart. Anyway, I had to take a breather and pace myself to enjoy it. Was also reassured by bff who says "Nothing. Welcome to your second trimester!"So I had a pretty good week/weekend, being super productive and active.
Week 15 started the same.
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When I got that call about baby V, my insecurities came right back up. Am I ok? Should I get a doppler to find the heartbeat? Once again had to take a breather and to tell myself to chill out! Instead, Twitchy and I went for a long walk by the beach and had Ben & Jerrys!
Today (i mean yesterday - being up at 3am still counts as the night before), I was suddenly hit with a headache. It's not your typical pounding headache, but uncomfortable nevertheless. Reduced me to being in bed the entire afternoon. Which wasn't so bad - I read a book and listened to the rain. Sipped on hubby's coke during dinner, and felt 100% better! Caffeine really is the remedy when you have preppy headaches!
On, and another update - I think I can finally feel and glimpse the bump. Which is exciting, because before this, I don't really look pregnant. Just felt pregnant and fat (when i have only gained 2 kgs).
OBGYN appointment in 4 days, will be looking forward to seeing mini K then!
Week 14 (last week) was the strangest week ever. Woke up one morning and behold - I felt the most unpregnant ever! Was a bundle of energy, went to bed late (10:30pm!), no nausea and no bloat! I felt so good. But after 2-3 days, I got a little worried - what is wrong with me?
Yes, this is so typically me. Miss worry-wart. Anyway, I had to take a breather and pace myself to enjoy it. Was also reassured by bff who says "Nothing. Welcome to your second trimester!"So I had a pretty good week/weekend, being super productive and active.
Week 15 started the same.
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When I got that call about baby V, my insecurities came right back up. Am I ok? Should I get a doppler to find the heartbeat? Once again had to take a breather and to tell myself to chill out! Instead, Twitchy and I went for a long walk by the beach and had Ben & Jerrys!
Today (i mean yesterday - being up at 3am still counts as the night before), I was suddenly hit with a headache. It's not your typical pounding headache, but uncomfortable nevertheless. Reduced me to being in bed the entire afternoon. Which wasn't so bad - I read a book and listened to the rain. Sipped on hubby's coke during dinner, and felt 100% better! Caffeine really is the remedy when you have preppy headaches!
On, and another update - I think I can finally feel and glimpse the bump. Which is exciting, because before this, I don't really look pregnant. Just felt pregnant and fat (when i have only gained 2 kgs).
OBGYN appointment in 4 days, will be looking forward to seeing mini K then!
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Bye V
Friday started of like any other usual day. Uneventful, but with a restless countdown to the weekend.
The phone rang at lunchtime. Strange, I thought. I don't hear from this person much these days. 10 minutes later, a blanket of sadness and grief engulfed me. My dear friends have lost their 4 month old. She was tucked to bed, and when they checked on her later that night, she wasn't breathing. From what I gathered, they rushed to the hospital, where she was put on life support. But didn't make it in the morning.
Devastating. I've heard of SIDS but never heard or know anyone who've been affected.
...the sound of both of my dear friends sobbing will haunt me for a very long time.
I couldn't sleep that night. Culmination of heat, sadness and fear. Is my baby ok? Will my baby be ok?
I'd be happier when I have my next OBGYN appointment next week.
The phone rang at lunchtime. Strange, I thought. I don't hear from this person much these days. 10 minutes later, a blanket of sadness and grief engulfed me. My dear friends have lost their 4 month old. She was tucked to bed, and when they checked on her later that night, she wasn't breathing. From what I gathered, they rushed to the hospital, where she was put on life support. But didn't make it in the morning.
Devastating. I've heard of SIDS but never heard or know anyone who've been affected.
...the sound of both of my dear friends sobbing will haunt me for a very long time.
I couldn't sleep that night. Culmination of heat, sadness and fear. Is my baby ok? Will my baby be ok?
I'd be happier when I have my next OBGYN appointment next week.
Monday, December 31, 2012
And that's a wrap
It's the last day of 2012! Normally at this time of the year I'd be gearing up to party hard. But with a bun in the oven - I'm crossing my fingers that I would be all right and awake to watch the fireworks.
It's a busy day ahead. Instead of our usual beach house getaway, we'll be at Coogee beach, and possibly staying over at our friend's place, who are heavy drinkers and smokers.
Have I mentioned how sensitive my sense of smell is these days? When Twitchy has more than a beer, he has to resort to sleeping in the living room. The smell is too much to bear!
It's tempting to sit out this New Years Eve, but gotta be a good sport about this, don't we?
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13 Weeks and 6 days
Little bun is now 13 weeks and 6 days. I'm now on my second trimester and nausea has eased up a little. (still creeps up when I fail to eat on time). We survived Xmas in Canberra. Had a 13 hour sleep one night - a result from a morning walk and an evening walk. I am easily breathless from walking up a hill. Typical Xmas, ate too much and tummy got a little stretched and uncomfortable.
Prior to Xmas, I had my 12 week ultrasound. Lil bun was the cutest thing ever. We got a little wave, and its hands were constantly touching its face/nose. Because lil bun was sedentary, I was told to give a little cough. When I did, it moved a little and decided to turn to its side. Mooning us in the process. Ahhhh what a cheeky little bun!
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