Friday, May 26, 2006
Carrot Junkie
My dog absolutely adores the carrot. I love the way she would gently take the carrot from my hand and then runs off to toss the carrot in the air and play a game of hide and seek with it. And when she’s done playing with it, she’ll sit on the favourite spot on her couch and munch the carrots ala bugs bunny style. I sure will miss my baby when I move up to the big smoke. Wish I could take her along.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Holy sh*t.
I didn't realise that my old blog is still available on the net! Note that by old i mean ancient. I had a great time perusing thought my thoughts and man, have my changed from then. I'm like a whole new person.
*smiles*
If you are curious and would like to read about my previous self, let me know.
I didn't realise that my old blog is still available on the net! Note that by old i mean ancient. I had a great time perusing thought my thoughts and man, have my changed from then. I'm like a whole new person.
*smiles*
If you are curious and would like to read about my previous self, let me know.
Not so young anymore
Not working warrants me to late night online chats with people whom I’ve not been in contact for a while. There is nothing more satisfying than late night emo chats with my best friend, Debbie. Usually this warrants a bottle of Vino, in a park/balcony/bar but seeing that she’s a thousand miles away, Msn + webcam shall do.
A couple of nights ago, we had the chance to catch up on goss and thoughts.The past year or so, Debbie and I used to freak out when we hear about people our age who were getting engaged/married/having a kid. What does this signify, to have people our age to think about settling down when we’ve barely started yet? Our rationale was that we’re still still too young; what about the things we’ve dreamt of, the things we have yet to do before settling down? In this day and age, I thought that people would prioritise personal ambitions over marriage…
So back to a couple of nights ago, Debbie and I shared our innermost thoughts and came to a seemingly obvious conclusion. The fact that we’re not so young anymore. ( I suppose this sounded like a D’oh moment but it’s a long time coming….especially since I’m finally coming into terms of me being in the mid 20’s age bracket)
What I’ve just realised is that it is actually normal for people my age to settle down. And why not indeed? You meet your soul mate, you’re comfortable where or with who u are, you’ve achieved your degree…you’re sick of partying, you don’t conform to being cool and you’re just happy and contented. At the prime of your life. So why not settle down? It’s a natural progression after all…..
Even so, I doubt I’ll be doing so anytime soon. I have given serious thought about it but there’s a part of my who will not forgive myself if I do not fulfil my personal ambition of achieving my career of choice and financial independence.
Why do I feel the need to chase my ambitions? Who shoved this idea in my head? Why do I perceive ambitions, financial stability as a form of happiness, and even more disturbing so is why do is it listed above me settling down with my man whom I’ve had a 4 year relationship with? Is this who I really am?
Don’t get me wrong, I am happy where I am. I just can’t help but question my priorities.
A couple of nights ago, we had the chance to catch up on goss and thoughts.The past year or so, Debbie and I used to freak out when we hear about people our age who were getting engaged/married/having a kid. What does this signify, to have people our age to think about settling down when we’ve barely started yet? Our rationale was that we’re still still too young; what about the things we’ve dreamt of, the things we have yet to do before settling down? In this day and age, I thought that people would prioritise personal ambitions over marriage…
So back to a couple of nights ago, Debbie and I shared our innermost thoughts and came to a seemingly obvious conclusion. The fact that we’re not so young anymore. ( I suppose this sounded like a D’oh moment but it’s a long time coming….especially since I’m finally coming into terms of me being in the mid 20’s age bracket)
What I’ve just realised is that it is actually normal for people my age to settle down. And why not indeed? You meet your soul mate, you’re comfortable where or with who u are, you’ve achieved your degree…you’re sick of partying, you don’t conform to being cool and you’re just happy and contented. At the prime of your life. So why not settle down? It’s a natural progression after all…..
Even so, I doubt I’ll be doing so anytime soon. I have given serious thought about it but there’s a part of my who will not forgive myself if I do not fulfil my personal ambition of achieving my career of choice and financial independence.
Why do I feel the need to chase my ambitions? Who shoved this idea in my head? Why do I perceive ambitions, financial stability as a form of happiness, and even more disturbing so is why do is it listed above me settling down with my man whom I’ve had a 4 year relationship with? Is this who I really am?
Don’t get me wrong, I am happy where I am. I just can’t help but question my priorities.
Not so young anymore
Not working warrants me to late night online chats with people whom I’ve not been in contact for a while. There is nothing more satisfying than late night emo chats with my best friend, Debbie. Usually this warrants a bottle of Vino, in a park/balcony/bar but seeing that she’s a thousand miles away, Msn + webcam shall do.
A couple of nights ago, we had the chance to catch up on goss and thoughts.The past year or so, Debbie and I used to freak out when we hear about people our age who were getting engaged/married/having a kid. What does this signify, to have people our age to think about settling down when we’ve barely started yet? Our rationale was that we’re still still too young; what about the things we’ve dreamt of, the things we have yet to do before settling down? In this day and age, I thought that people would prioritise personal ambitions over marriage…
So back to a couple of nights ago, Debbie and I shared our innermost thoughts and came to a seemingly obvious conclusion. The fact that we’re not so young anymore. ( I suppose this sounded like a D’oh moment but it’s a long time coming….especially since I’m finally coming into terms of me being in the mid 20’s age bracket)
What I’ve just realised is that it is actually normal for people my age to settle down. And why not indeed? You meet your soul mate, you’re comfortable where or with who u are, you’ve achieved your degree…you’re sick of partying, you don’t conform to being cool and you’re just happy and contented. At the prime of your life. So why not settle down? It’s a natural progression after all…..
Even so, I doubt I’ll be doing so anytime soon. I have given serious thought about it but there’s a part of my who will not forgive myself if I do not fulfil my personal ambition of achieving my career of choice and financial independence.
Why do I feel the need to chase my ambitions? Who shoved this idea in my head? Why do I perceive ambitions, financial stability as a form of happiness, and even more disturbing so is why do is it listed above me settling down with my man whom I’ve had a 4 year relationship with? Is this who I really am?
Don’t get me wrong, I am happy where I am. I just can’t help but question my priorities.
A couple of nights ago, we had the chance to catch up on goss and thoughts.The past year or so, Debbie and I used to freak out when we hear about people our age who were getting engaged/married/having a kid. What does this signify, to have people our age to think about settling down when we’ve barely started yet? Our rationale was that we’re still still too young; what about the things we’ve dreamt of, the things we have yet to do before settling down? In this day and age, I thought that people would prioritise personal ambitions over marriage…
So back to a couple of nights ago, Debbie and I shared our innermost thoughts and came to a seemingly obvious conclusion. The fact that we’re not so young anymore. ( I suppose this sounded like a D’oh moment but it’s a long time coming….especially since I’m finally coming into terms of me being in the mid 20’s age bracket)
What I’ve just realised is that it is actually normal for people my age to settle down. And why not indeed? You meet your soul mate, you’re comfortable where or with who u are, you’ve achieved your degree…you’re sick of partying, you don’t conform to being cool and you’re just happy and contented. At the prime of your life. So why not settle down? It’s a natural progression after all…..
Even so, I doubt I’ll be doing so anytime soon. I have given serious thought about it but there’s a part of my who will not forgive myself if I do not fulfil my personal ambition of achieving my career of choice and financial independence.
Why do I feel the need to chase my ambitions? Who shoved this idea in my head? Why do I perceive ambitions, financial stability as a form of happiness, and even more disturbing so is why do is it listed above me settling down with my man whom I’ve had a 4 year relationship with? Is this who I really am?
Don’t get me wrong, I am happy where I am. I just can’t help but question my priorities.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I’ve just realised how organised I am. Or rather how I find the need to live in an organised life. Second day into my holiday and I have already made use of my Outlook Calendar.
Let's see... At the moment, I have two one and half hour gym sessions per day and allocated an hour per day to walk the dog. The rest of my day is filled with tasks and things to do. I think it’s great! I remember the last time I bummed around, I felt lost. As though there was no direction in my life, no goals, no objectives. Well that was then and now is now....
Makes me realised what a goal driven person I am too. Wonder if it’s a good thing…
Let's see... At the moment, I have two one and half hour gym sessions per day and allocated an hour per day to walk the dog. The rest of my day is filled with tasks and things to do. I think it’s great! I remember the last time I bummed around, I felt lost. As though there was no direction in my life, no goals, no objectives. Well that was then and now is now....
Makes me realised what a goal driven person I am too. Wonder if it’s a good thing…
Sunday, May 21, 2006
I’ve done it! I’ve served my notice, I have finally walked out from the office for the last time. Man, my resignation from work is wayyyyyyy overdue. Two freaking years! I can’t believe I stayed there for two freaking years! I loved my work, don’t get me wrong here, but it’s just not what I wanna do for the rest of my life. It wasn’t something I wanted to do to begin with but I needed the experience and was desperate for something to do. I thought I would only be there for 6 months but promotions, pay rise and positive appraisals kept me going. Also helped that I’ve grown attached to everyone at work. The extraordinary personalities, the eccentricities(?) of some and the emotional support throughout tough times in my personal life….
My last month at work was an emotional one. I have always been strong and focused on why I do the things I do but I begin to question myself during that period of time. Am I really sure I want to take myself out of my comfort zone and start anew in the big smoke?
Hell yeah, sure I do. I’m a freaking 24 year old and I feel as though I haven’t done much in my life. There’s so much more I need to do. I’m not ready to settle down to a comfortable life yet!
Annnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyyywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy…. I’d be updating this blog with more frequency than before and will certainly post some photos with the things I’d get up to!
Note to self:
Gawd. It seems as though every tom, dick and lucy has a blog. Nevermind that 80% of these blogs are insightful. Never mind that most of these blogs are pretty much “poser” aka “look at my me” blogs. Everybody just wants to be noticed-there’s a celebrity wannabe in everyone!
There’s always someone out there reading what you do, someone wishing that their live is as colourful as yours, or they are as good looking as your superimposed photos. Dare to dream, I’d say.
My last month at work was an emotional one. I have always been strong and focused on why I do the things I do but I begin to question myself during that period of time. Am I really sure I want to take myself out of my comfort zone and start anew in the big smoke?
Hell yeah, sure I do. I’m a freaking 24 year old and I feel as though I haven’t done much in my life. There’s so much more I need to do. I’m not ready to settle down to a comfortable life yet!
Annnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyyywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy…. I’d be updating this blog with more frequency than before and will certainly post some photos with the things I’d get up to!
Note to self:
Gawd. It seems as though every tom, dick and lucy has a blog. Nevermind that 80% of these blogs are insightful. Never mind that most of these blogs are pretty much “poser” aka “look at my me” blogs. Everybody just wants to be noticed-there’s a celebrity wannabe in everyone!
There’s always someone out there reading what you do, someone wishing that their live is as colourful as yours, or they are as good looking as your superimposed photos. Dare to dream, I’d say.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
I’m down to my last working week. It feels good. As though a burden has been lifted.
I’m grumpy today. Hate that tingly feeling in throat. Stop taunting me, make me sick already. So I can get over it. I swear it’s from the Geek’s cooties. The next time he speaks on top of me with his spit raining all over I’ll spirtz my Ajax down his throat. Except that I think I’ll be doing him a favour.
So yeah I’m grumpy. I need some TLC. Someone, spoil me, please.
I’m grumpy today. Hate that tingly feeling in throat. Stop taunting me, make me sick already. So I can get over it. I swear it’s from the Geek’s cooties. The next time he speaks on top of me with his spit raining all over I’ll spirtz my Ajax down his throat. Except that I think I’ll be doing him a favour.
So yeah I’m grumpy. I need some TLC. Someone, spoil me, please.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
4 weeks and counting…
I’ve broken the news to the boss and am pondering my future career in the big smoke. Try as I might, I’m not marketing person and most certainly am no graphic designer either. I hope to venture into corporate communication and fingers crossed, will land the job of my dreams, or at least come close to it. Currently serving my four weeks notice, I’m getting increasingly excited at the thought of starting anew! I’m consciously aware of my future possibilities and I’m rubbing my hands in glee to finally be able to choose my career!
For the time being, I’m dreaming of a place of my own (and Twitch’s of course), been picturing myself happily snuggling in front of the 42 inch LCD screen and soaking up some sun on my balcony. All these while trying to block out the annoying ramble of IT geeks surrounding my cubicle…Sigh. I can’t wait!
For the time being, I’m dreaming of a place of my own (and Twitch’s of course), been picturing myself happily snuggling in front of the 42 inch LCD screen and soaking up some sun on my balcony. All these while trying to block out the annoying ramble of IT geeks surrounding my cubicle…Sigh. I can’t wait!
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Glorious glorious holiday.
My all time fav spot on a lazy Sunday afternoon. Old pic but hey, some things never change!
I love midweek public holidays!!
Why can't we have a 4 day working week at least twice a month?
Monday, April 24, 2006
It was all about the Lindts
Easter is my most anticipated yet dreaded time of the year. For both reasons it’s all about the chocolates... He he!
I haven’t been religiously updating this blog but my life basically consist of routine up untill now. I have submitted my resignation at work and as of 26th May, I’ll be jet setting around Australia for two weeks before relocating to the big Smoke. FINALLY! *BIG SIGH of relief*
I haven’t been religiously updating this blog but my life basically consist of routine up untill now. I have submitted my resignation at work and as of 26th May, I’ll be jet setting around Australia for two weeks before relocating to the big Smoke. FINALLY! *BIG SIGH of relief*
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Life is one big stress
I don't get it. Why must everything inevitably turn into stress ? Why can't we just life live the way it is and not have anything to worry? Wouldn't it be nice? Why why why?
Why can't converting driving license just be.....literally converting driving license? Why do i need to re-sit the freaking test? I can drive just fine.Just like any other idiot on the road. So whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? It's so painful and stressfull i think my hair is falling out more than usual. I'm Balding!
No thanks to stress. While we're at it, i wonder if i'll lose weight from this......at least there's a silver lining in my sky while i drown...
Why can't converting driving license just be.....literally converting driving license? Why do i need to re-sit the freaking test? I can drive just fine.Just like any other idiot on the road. So whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? It's so painful and stressfull i think my hair is falling out more than usual. I'm Balding!
No thanks to stress. While we're at it, i wonder if i'll lose weight from this......at least there's a silver lining in my sky while i drown...
Monday, February 06, 2006
8:15am - It's a huge mistake. The smell of stress was ever so familiar. It was as though i had never left, had never gone on a 6 week vacation. You look "refresh" they say...."Yeah right", i thought " the smell of the office is quickly erasing all memories of my holiday, and true enough....i felt sick...sick to the stomach. There's something about that office that makes us all sick. Perhaps it's the bad ventilation; some blame it on the indecisive air cond....while me, I blame it all on the freaking IT Geeks who have never practice or heard of the term HYGIENE. They spread cooties, i swear.
5:15pm - i lost count of the times i wished that i had never step back into the office. What a crappy day! But really, it is quite predictable. Why did i ever think that i will ease back into my job for the next two months when the shit has been hitting the fan for the past 8 months now?
Trust a crisis to arise with a supplier barely an hour of settling down. Infact, trust a crisis to arise when i have yet to have my coffee!!
I spent the next hour and a bit at the gym after work. Pushing myself to work out, to work all the demons out of my head. Perhaps, as they all say, releasing some endorphins will help me calm down....regroup my thoughts and figure out a plan of action....Yeah right. More like, work myself out untill i have no energy to think or feel any emotion.....
I dread tomorrow. 4 more days till the weekend, 6 weeks till the next long weekend and 11 weeks untill Easter. Let the countdown begin....
5:15pm - i lost count of the times i wished that i had never step back into the office. What a crappy day! But really, it is quite predictable. Why did i ever think that i will ease back into my job for the next two months when the shit has been hitting the fan for the past 8 months now?
Trust a crisis to arise with a supplier barely an hour of settling down. Infact, trust a crisis to arise when i have yet to have my coffee!!
I spent the next hour and a bit at the gym after work. Pushing myself to work out, to work all the demons out of my head. Perhaps, as they all say, releasing some endorphins will help me calm down....regroup my thoughts and figure out a plan of action....Yeah right. More like, work myself out untill i have no energy to think or feel any emotion.....
I dread tomorrow. 4 more days till the weekend, 6 weeks till the next long weekend and 11 weeks untill Easter. Let the countdown begin....
Sunday, February 05, 2006
After a long absence.....
Hello 2006!
Realised that i'm a month and a bit late with that greeting above... Oh well, better late than never?
I don't have much excuse to offer for my long long absence except that work engulfed me the second half of 2005. For those who thinks that we Aussies don't work hard as compared to Asian countries, i'd challenge you to swap places with me! No kidding. I've lost count of the times I was burnt out in 2005. Yeh yeah...whinge whinge f%cking whinge. I probably should be thankful to be working in Canberra...
Anyhow, i'm back in the bush capital after spending 6 blissful weeks in Malaysia; spoilt rotten by families and friends. All ready to jump back in the ratrace....*gulp*
*In actual fact, i'm wide awake at approximately 10:30pm on a Sunday night dreading my first day back to work tomorrow...Oh Help me God!
Realised that i'm a month and a bit late with that greeting above... Oh well, better late than never?
I don't have much excuse to offer for my long long absence except that work engulfed me the second half of 2005. For those who thinks that we Aussies don't work hard as compared to Asian countries, i'd challenge you to swap places with me! No kidding. I've lost count of the times I was burnt out in 2005. Yeh yeah...whinge whinge f%cking whinge. I probably should be thankful to be working in Canberra...
Anyhow, i'm back in the bush capital after spending 6 blissful weeks in Malaysia; spoilt rotten by families and friends. All ready to jump back in the ratrace....*gulp*
*In actual fact, i'm wide awake at approximately 10:30pm on a Sunday night dreading my first day back to work tomorrow...Oh Help me God!
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Every so often the tears flow so freely
You would think that after 10 months the pain would ease, the pain would subside but truly, it never does. Sure, there are times where I’m living my life, enjoying my world but just when this happens it sneaks up on me. This dark sorrow creeps up with overwhelming and suffocating grief.
I miss you.
I miss you.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
The weather has been playing havoc recently. Just a month ago, it was snowing and hailing, two weeks ago there was an awful cold snap and now……
Bright Blue sky! I love how we HAD to endure 4-5 months of cold cold weather to suddenly have a peek of whats in store for the next few months.
I’ve come to the point where I just ain’t enjoying them anymore. People talk about how common binge drinking is; how about binge smoking? I think personally, I have been binge smoking for the last 2-3 years. Started out with the excuse of social smoking to coping with difficult times to being addicted to nicotine…I have simply become one who smokes. A chain smoker. There, I have said it. Gone where the days where I would sit and enjoy a couple of smokes while having a drink and a chat with friends. I’m not as bad any some who goes by pack a day but I think 25 sticks in 7 days is bad enough……So I’m taking a break. Who knows, I might probably quit for good….I would ideally, like to go back to the days where I only smoke to kick back and relax….
Update: Day 3:- Just had my first coffee session without any. I was nervous but proud that I lived through it. Next test? Sat’s drinking session. Now…THAT’S a test.
Bright Blue sky! I love how we HAD to endure 4-5 months of cold cold weather to suddenly have a peek of whats in store for the next few months.
I’ve come to the point where I just ain’t enjoying them anymore. People talk about how common binge drinking is; how about binge smoking? I think personally, I have been binge smoking for the last 2-3 years. Started out with the excuse of social smoking to coping with difficult times to being addicted to nicotine…I have simply become one who smokes. A chain smoker. There, I have said it. Gone where the days where I would sit and enjoy a couple of smokes while having a drink and a chat with friends. I’m not as bad any some who goes by pack a day but I think 25 sticks in 7 days is bad enough……So I’m taking a break. Who knows, I might probably quit for good….I would ideally, like to go back to the days where I only smoke to kick back and relax….
Update: Day 3:- Just had my first coffee session without any. I was nervous but proud that I lived through it. Next test? Sat’s drinking session. Now…THAT’S a test.
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
3 years ago…
Living on ressies
Having the time of my life
I have just gotten together with Twitchy
G block was the place to be…
Tobogganing at the snow
When weekends were just another day to party to compliment existing Thursday and Friday nights…
2 years ago...
Living in a waterside 3 bedroom apartment along with two other girl friends
Picking up the pieces after an exodus of friends
Dreading the end of Uni
All about the cooking and eating
Retreated to a social seclusion
Horse Riding
1 year ago…
One bedroom near city apartment
Working 25 hours per week
Getting out of debt – barely living by
Mad house-drinking parties
Mourning over the end of my university chapter
Today...
Living with his parents along with the two dogs
Owning a Bright bumblebee
Working fulltime in a Marketing Coordinator position
Learning to ski
Learning to drive
I had lost a brother...
Living on ressies
Having the time of my life
I have just gotten together with Twitchy
G block was the place to be…
Tobogganing at the snow
When weekends were just another day to party to compliment existing Thursday and Friday nights…
2 years ago...
Living in a waterside 3 bedroom apartment along with two other girl friends
Picking up the pieces after an exodus of friends
Dreading the end of Uni
All about the cooking and eating
Retreated to a social seclusion
Horse Riding
1 year ago…
One bedroom near city apartment
Working 25 hours per week
Getting out of debt – barely living by
Mad house-drinking parties
Mourning over the end of my university chapter
Today...
Living with his parents along with the two dogs
Owning a Bright bumblebee
Working fulltime in a Marketing Coordinator position
Learning to ski
Learning to drive
I had lost a brother...
Friday, August 12, 2005
Hire Slow, Sack fast?
That was quoted on the first page of the Business pullout a week ago. That was surely, I thought, the most inappropriate thing for an employer to say. Arrogant yes, In denial Yes. Openly taunting and asking for a PR disaster…HELL YES! And even more so to have those words coming from someone i know is enough to make me cringe….
I have recently seen a side of management which deeply disturbs me. Having work in this company for the past 18 months, I’ve grown to love every single one of my weird and eccentric workmates. This month, I’m losing four of them. It’s quite an eye opener, I’ll have to say. Again, full of uncertainty…I can’t help but wonder, is a line between personal, business and social in office relationships? Am I naïve to think that people can change if they were given another chance?
I sure am glad I’m not in Management…..
I have recently seen a side of management which deeply disturbs me. Having work in this company for the past 18 months, I’ve grown to love every single one of my weird and eccentric workmates. This month, I’m losing four of them. It’s quite an eye opener, I’ll have to say. Again, full of uncertainty…I can’t help but wonder, is a line between personal, business and social in office relationships? Am I naïve to think that people can change if they were given another chance?
I sure am glad I’m not in Management…..
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
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