Loneliness is suffocating

Today I am home alone. I have not lived this life of being home alone with a newborn. 

Mum came when I was 39 weeks and left 5 weeks post partum. 

Tears keep streaming down my face as I miss the interaction I had with mum. Every now and then I feel so scared, so alone, I just can't breathe! 

The house feels empty. Even with the tv on, it's just too quiet..

Baby K was also extremely clingy today. Perhaps she sensed my anxiety. 

I know I can do this. I just need to get into this new routine. Give me a few days. I will get there. I will be stronger. I will stop crying. In time I will breathe again....